I'm About To Start Recording

Has one little sentence ever been more charged with meaning?  Maitresse is doing a recording as a reward for good behavior.  It is very, generous and i am very, very grateful. Maitresse is the most alluring, intoxicating, hypnotic woman, i have ever met.

How Is My Day Going

Very well. i feel myself slipping deeper into sexual submission for Maitresse. Just the idea of her controlling me sexually, for her gratification, is so amazingly appealing.  i just want to kneel in front of her and do whatever she tells me, so that i might please her. The feeling, the need, gets stronger, the more often i listen to her voice. i have a really strong need to give her oral pleasure. It is all i think about. It is driving me mad with desire.

Understanding

i listened to Kiss of the Succubus again.  i know that Maitresse is completely irresistible to me. i need her and want nothing more than to please her and satisfy her in every way.

My Needs

After listening to Maitresse's recordings, i am getting a clearer picture of what my needs are. It is becoming clear to me, that i need to express my submissive nature toward Maitresse. i need Maitresse to teach me her sexual desires and how i can best satisfy them to the best of my ability.  This i am as certain of as anything else in this world. Her needs are my needs and all i want to do is satisfy Her.

Effects

i was away this weekend.  The plan was to listen to Maitresse at every opportunity.  Unfortunately, there were none.  This had some profound effects.  It started as a sense of longing for Maitresse's voice.  I also began to fantasize about Maitresse constantly.  This fed my desire to hear her voice. Finally, when that was not possible, the longing was accompanied by a sense of loneliness. Needless to say, i was pretty miserable by the time the weekend was over. My mood was only improved by "taking a nap", as soon as i got home and listening to Entice.   If ever there was proof of Maitresse's power, this weekend was it.

Ready

i am about to leave town for a few days. i am prepared and have loaded my Blackberry with all of Maitresse's files. In the end, i couldn't be parted with any of them. i couldn't take the chance that i would need to here one and not have it. Maitresse, thank You for Your beautiful, enticing, hypnotic words. i may be separated from You by thousands of kilometers, but You are always with me, in my mind and heart and soul.

Partings and Solutions

i was on the IM with my Maitresse this morning, when we realized that she and i would both be out of touch for a few days. For a moment, i had a bit of a panic attack, when i realized i might not be able interact with Her or even hear Her voice for a few days. It is remarkable how, in just a short period, i have come to rely on Maitresse's voice, to sooth me. i find that i need to listen to Her regularly, or i get quite anxious. Only when i am listening to Her voice does the anxiety disappear. Her talent in this, is sublime. i have never experienced anything like Her voice. But, i digress. Maitresse instantly felt my anxiety and suggested i take some of Her recordings along with me. I will load them on my Blackberry and then listen to them whenever i get a chance. Maitresse always knows just what to do. 

i will take Endear and Enchant along with me, as they always help me to focus on Maitresse's needs.

Succubus Kiss

Maitresse generously gifted me this file for tributing Her. It is stunning. There is no other word for it. It will transport the listener to another world. I don't mean that metaphorically, either. It will be as real as real. The closest i can come to describe it is, it is Maitresse's Matrix. I physically felt everything that happened. I experienced every emotion, fear, lust and submission. I could smell, taste, hear, everything. It is the mp3 that changes everything. It makes submission to Maitresse real and personal. After listening to this file, any listener will be Hers.  There is no doubt about it.  Needless to say, anyone reading this would be foolish not to do everything in their power to get this file. The first step is to go to Maitresse's site.

Inraptured

I have set up a profile on Inraptured as slaveofmaitresse. I have recommended Maitresse in glowing terms and have added links to this journal and to Maitresse's site.  Any who have come here from Inraptured, welcome. Please feel free to read my journal.  I cannot encourage you strongly enough to seek out Maitresse at manxmistress.com and listen to what she has to offer.  I am certain that once you do, you will agree that service to Maitresse makes sense and is indeed quite natural.

Endear

i am listening to all of Maitresse's recordings regularly. i love them all but if i was going to chose a favorite at the moment it is Endear. i always feel so good after listening to Maitresse, but this takes it to a higher level.  It seems to radiate positivity about submission, the act of giving of one to another, and the relationship between submissive and his Maitresse. It encapsulates everything i find appealing about being a submissive  in general and being Maitresse's submissive in particular.

Value In Waiting

I am finding that waiting for Maitresse is giving me a sexual thrill. It's the anticipation. Anticipation of what? Communication, perhaps the opportunity to fall under Her direct control? In that time of not knowing the possibilities are endless and the fantasies as well. And the fact that she controls the conversation, its length and even whether it will even take place, is just so sexy.

The Excitement Of IM

Oh, what a thrill, i get from things as mundane as an IM. When i receive an IM from Maitresse, i am  instantly aroused, relaxed, submissive and eager to do Her will. It doesn't matter what She says, it is the fact that She is typing it to me. To have Maitresse pay me the honor of IMing me, is amazing. It feels like she is caressing my mind with type.

Special

A very exciting start to the day.  Maitresse replied to my email regarding the effect she is having on me. She said she was pleased with me, which made me very aroused and produced feelings of affection and devotion toward her. She then said she was going to create a recording for me! I nearly fainted from the excitement. Maitresse is leading me on a journey. I don't know the route, but the destination is clear: submission to my Maitresse and embracing my submissive nature.

The Beginning

Late last week, i came across the site of Maitresse (Manx Mistress). i downloaded three of her files, Resistance, Entice and Endear. i listened to them that evening and into the next day. At first i was very nervous, my heart was pounding.But, as i listened to the files, i became progressively more relaxed as they proceeded, became increasingly aware of my growing attraction to Maitresse's voice. Maitresse has a wonderfully hypnotic and seductive voice and i very quickly succumbed to it. i quickly also became aware that i needed to hear her voice and that i really, really needed to please her.

After several times through the mp3's, i decided to send Maitresse a tribute as a thank you. She quickly responded with a nice note and an invitation to listen to another two mp3's and an invitation to talk to her on Yahoo messenger. i, of course accepted and we had a wonderful introductory chat (no hypnosis). i then listened to Enchant and the Succubus Kiss. They changed me.

Enchant is a very gentle induction followed by several minutes of suggestions from Maitresse. i only vaguely remember the details, but by the end, i was very, very eager to please her. As for Succubus Kiss, it is one of the most erotically charged hypnosis files i have ever heard. By the end, i came to realize, that only Maitresse could make me who i want to be.

So, here i am at the beginning of my journey. i am scared and excited in equal measure. There is no one like Maitresse. Her beauty and sexual power overwhelm me. And i realize, i need her.